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Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Red Movie Review
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
thePROJECT
thePROJECT-Behind the Scenes from Rob Oakley on Vimeo.
This is the official and final version of the behind-the-scenes video for the Pregnancy Help Center of West Houston and The Project. Watch as Steve Hebert explains in great detail our nine month journey to completing more than just an Eagle Project, but a short documentary of the lives of humble individuals and their incredible stories and experiences. For the benefit of potential volunteers, contributors and even clients in search for answers, please pass this video to others on along with our project website.
http://stephen-hebert.blogspot.com/
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Thursday, September 2, 2010
Dionysus Theatre
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Monday, August 23, 2010
Renaissance Man Set in Motion
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Saturday, August 14, 2010
Fire Eyes
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
A Simple Nothing
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
eltiT
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Building the Family Library
So 1st Summer Session at the Lone star College is finally over and I can put Spanish behind me and focus on some things around home. I won’t have much to do now aside from the reading I’m planing to do so I’ve decided to take on a few challenges until the Summer comes to a close.
So my first challenge is organizing and cataloging the family Library. I’ve take some time to research the necessary steps and well it appears to be fairly simple. Though I won’t be using anything extravagant like the Dewy Decimal System or the system they have set up at the Library of Congress, I quite simply will place the family collection in general categories such as Health and Science and Nature; Children Stories and Picture Books; Christianity and Spiritual Growth; Government and History; Geography and Reference; Education and “How-Tos”; and Fiction and Non-Fiction. While I sort the books in those categories I will also sort them alphabetically according to author and book title. Easy, right?
We actually have a LOT of books and it’s going to take some time to catalog them all on my computer, but thankful with the advent of the Internet age it shouldn’t be all that bad. I found this rather ingenious website called “LibraryThing.” It allows me to search for my books online then add them to a virtual library. That way my database can be stored safely onto a web server and even shared with others.
Why am I going through all this trouble? Well, like I said, the family has a LOT of books and I just want to take up this challenge to make it a little easier to find something on any particular topic. It’s another mission of mine to help plant a strong interest in discovering the world through books in not only myself but my younger siblings. I regret not reading much as a child and It would seem I have some catching up to do so why not share the experience and make it something worthwhile for the whole family?
Can’t wait till it’s all finished: it’s going to look and feel fantastic.
Ciao for now!
~The Renaissance Man
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
In the Beginning. . .
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Friday, July 2, 2010
Pregnancy Help Center of West Houston video teaser from Steve Hebert on Vimeo.
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Monday, June 21, 2010
My Home
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Friday, May 14, 2010
Stained Glass Without a Sun
Matthew 5:14-16
14 “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Wednesday, April 14, 2010
The Effects of Media
EFFECTS OF MEDIA
Media education is an excellent way to develop courses and programs for children and their learning environments as television, video games, and the internet are already customary in their daily lives (Baltruschat, 2004).
The great phenomenon of media has for long been presented as a source of entertainment but not necessarily for education. The exposure to media is unavoidable and increasingly integrates society in a number of ways including the world of academics. One major aspect and concern, however, are the positive and negative effects media has on an individual at both early and higher levels of development.
Very few studies have investigated the demographical issues of media effects on children younger then six, such as Anand & Krosnick’s 2005 study in predicting the amount of media used among infants, toddlers, and preschoolers. Whereas other studies have investigated the effects on high school and college students in both extracurricular and crosscurricular situations. Whether it be for pure enjoyment of the vast amounts and forms of communications or a deeper approach to understanding the world that surounds, researchers are hard at work discovering what role media plays on individuals and societies alike, including how its effects can be channeled to benefit both in immense ways.
Media in Early Development
For centuries books and written forms of communication have been a primary method for sharing and exploring new ideas. Although the written word may never die, the way it is presented will always continue to progress and change. A study in the Netherlands explores the possibilities of text in electronic form and investigates the use of electronic books and how children understand story and character development in both traditional and electronic forms (De Jong & Bus, 2004). As traditional bound books featured physical turning pages, the electronic versions featured animated illustrations and interactivity. Both methods were equally understood by said children yet some of the responses and effects varied.
In De Jong and Bus’ (2004) study, kindergarten students were observed using interactive books and computer software with features that allowed readers to involve themselves with the stories by selectable screens and objects that would lead to strings of animations and interactivity. The major concern was whether or not the interactivity was too distracting for children in early development to fully comprehend the stories. Most media require a passive viewing where little thinking and processing are involved. This is where most of the concern comes from concerning the extensive use of new media in education. Though the ability for children to read on their own still may always require the close guidance of parents, this study provides results that suggest that is such the case. It is determined, then, that the close involvement of children and adults reading together may remain crucial at certain levels of development.
The concluding research found that reading several times stimulates children to be more vigilant toward details while at the same time expanding their vocabularies. For further research, scientists could also consider what factors influence developers of these interactive stories and reveal how they are trying to create a better learning experience for young children (De Jong & Bus 2004).
One other aspect from the electronic books is that children were able to interact with the stories creating a more hands on experience. Children with traditional bound books were left with standard illustrations, yet both groups showed the same amount of interest and comprehension of the stories. A final factor is the ability of the children to recreate the stories and to visualize them with only standard text as their imaginations develop (De Jong & Bus, 2004).
By making media a part of education and curriculum, a large involvement of students of all ages and stages of learning prove to be a much more enjoyable experience. Interactive media has been a fast growing trend in society and schools showing impressive results while having hands-on study and homework assignments has increased student participation and readiness in real world environments. Furthermore, the production process has allowed students to engage media education to learn more about mass media and the influence it has on themselves and their society (Baltruschat, 2004).
Hobbs and Frost’s 2003 study researches the interpretation of media used not only in educational environments but also those on television and advertisements. Currently, some schools are developing curriculum in media literacy allowing students an opportunity to better interpret the process messages within each program they observe.
Two high school groups in one study were assigned to undergo a series of exercises where they needed to identify certain elements in written, audible, and visual forms. One group was given no specific instructions and the other a new experimental curriculum (Hobbs & Frost, 2003). Both groups showed varied results showing a contrast between what students needed to know about media and what they already knew.
For further research, De Castell and Jenson’s 2005 observations of a new and quickly emerging educational field--videogames--could be of great use into understanding the future of education. The separation of work and play appears to be of the greatest concern among participants. Once they discover they are having to work to achieve goals, the process no longer seems voluntary or enjoyable. Despite this, video game developers are consistently coming up with new ways to stimulate the mind with games, puzzles, and simulations that keep an active player living and learning together at once.
What could be even more exciting is the use of virtual reality in some cases mostly
including some colleges as courses in theatre explore the use of computer generated sets to teach scenography to emerging students in the new generation of visual communications (Kuksa, 2009).
Although media and media education shows great promise in immense advancement for individuals at several different levels of learning, there are some negative effects to consider as the influence of media is just as strong in producing adolescence and violence.Media Violence, Adolescents, and Influence
Adolescence and violence among teenagers has gone far beyond the hallways of schools and even beyond teenagers as the internet evolves into a new playground of violent behavior. Internet bullies have become quite common around the World Wide Web and is a serious issue; however, there are many researchers developing ways to try and ease the social status of these types of individuals. In Cileziz’s 2009 study, the implication of media use in internet cafes as social phenomenon may be able to reform the way many educate themselves and socialize in controlled and understanding environments. Although computers and internet technologies may be a direct link to adolescent behavior, development of a better sense of how to make the social experience more enjoyable and safer for all participants has much needed potential in educational and political arenas.
Legitimizing education in video games has been a tough case but video games that are designed to educate proper behavior and tactics for successful living could, in fact, also be promoting violent behavior--especially coming from the contemporary and most popular first-person shooters. Although the video game industry has been strictly for entertainment purposes, many are trying to develop games to stimulate positive mental development and social skills. It is arguable that it may not necessarily be that digital games are to blame for the increase in violent behavior rather it may be a lack of observing decaying ethics in the new digital age (De Castell & Jenson,2005).
Anderson et al. (2003) argues that violence in mainstream television and video games may also still be a primary factor in leading society to adolescent and aggressive behavior. In this study the relationship youth have between their intake of violent mediums of entertainment (especially videogames) and their behavior in the real world are examined closely. Though violence in media is indeed a problem as evidence clearly shows there were some limitations concerning a call of action necessary to reduce the effects of violence as the result of overexposure.
Furthermore, media violence could also explain a cause for racial bias and prejudice as found in a two-study experiment focusing on the relationship of televised demonstrations of violence and race. Whether what is shown through fictional broadcast is affecting the viewers’ prejudice in real-world situations the results between both studies remain consistent to some degree showing that the race of any televised character has note-worthy effects on the emotions and mindset toward non-white citizens outside the settings of broadcast television. (Mastro, Lapinski, Kpacz, & Behm-Morawitz, 2009)
This may conclude that a better method toward properly interpreting media is at hand as what is crucial in academic literacy and integrity could also be used towards informing a culture of the critical thinking skills necessary to separate fiction from real life scenarios.Media Literacy
Technological skills and the ability to properly interpret media is shaping most society where a job, an education, or even citizenship will rely on an individual’s ability to use and understand new forms of communication. The electronic age continues to pursue forward: the way communication is developed, coded, and decoded is constantly changing. However, some communities and individuals may be left behind or even mislead if not taken carefully through the technological advancement.
Information and Communication Technologies (ICTs) is at the heart of a new revolution in the way people think, what they value, and how they behave. As for the technologically declined or illiterate, they could very well be left behind in the stone-age of written forms of communication being denied jobs, education, and even legitimized citizenship all because of a lack of computer and technological ability (Valentine & Holloway 2002).
In a study done by Valentine & Holloway (2002), they focused more on the future, the children of technology or “Cyber kids.” The study included extensive interviews with professionals and closely examined the relationships under development in both real-world and virtual-world environments. While investigating the acts and behaviors of children, the main topic of discussion tends to lean to what future society holds and seems fruitful; however, it would be wise to include what a common man can do to survive in the new virtual and high-speed society.
Because younger generations represent a very different and new emerging culture, some research is being done to analyze how parents feel about their children’s exposure to media. By using third-party perspective of parents and other children, researchers avoid what is described as self-enhancement. This is to say that interviews and studies based on performance that are left to an individual will almost always end up way above average. Statistically speaking, this is impossible; wherefore, scientists took a new approach into discovering what true effects media has on children both positive and negative. More specifically, studies are looking into how media influences a child’s (un)disability for materialism and how this effects their behavior. (Meirick, Sims, Gilchrist, & Croucher, 2009).
Another study looks closely at media bias and its presence in news coverage concerning the Iraqi war. More specifically, the study examines the relationship between two majorly competing networks, CBS and Fox, and their audiences. The term “persuasion theory” is mentioned thoroughly explaining how these tactical forms of communication can mislead well-educated audiences just as well as those with no education at all. Research reveals that a critical eye over news media needed by its viewers as its role in informing the populace sways from one political party to the other (Johansen & Joslyn 2008).
As mentioned earlier, the effects of media and media literacy are taken into consideration in Hobbs & Frosts 2003 study using data gathered from two separate eleventh-grade English student groups One group was assigned to critically examine and interpret print, audio, and visual media while the other was given no specific instructions or guidelines. The objective was to see the advantages and disadvantages of presenting students with a curriculum that guided their understanding towards properly identifying media aspects such as targeted audience and process messaging. There was a great contrast between students who were educated on media literacy and those who were not. Although one can assume the great amount of exposure to media in the information age would constitute a natural understating on the presented material, this study goes to length revealing a necessity to educate students to properly engage and comprehend the literacy behind all mediums of communication.
A final example of media dependency and over reliance is that in smaller community colleges, the aid to new students is lacking as many factors revealed in Deil-Amen and Rosenbaum’s 2003 study showing that students are not receiving the social know-how they need to be successful. Many students do not receive one-on-one counseling concerning their major are left with only current students for aid in choosing appropriate courses. A suggested means to counteract the lack of social skills is the implication of computer aided technologies; however, it may not be effective to learn social skills from a machine. Through better interaction with the people behind the courses rather then simply improving new student’s awareness of computer aided technologies could also be a sign of poor media literacy and understanding of its limitations.Summary
Society will forever use words to express themselves--the means of how one does this is in a constant flux of change from the way one says something to how he says it. The new extremes of what technology can communicate throughout the world is a demonstration of incredible power, power that must be taken into careful consideration and responsibility. Researches will continue to observe the intriguing activity of media education and development as both positive and negative aspects will be taken into an account. Although both media consumer and creator influence remains somewhat ambiguous as each individual value varies from person to person, there still remains a format of proper interpretation and representation of all that surounds. Any misuses or misleading material should be perfectly understood as such as each individual has a right to achieve an amble amount of skills to correctly understand the messages being portrayed in all forms of media. As media is used to teach and learn new experiences, the information age will also require courses in media literacy as studies have shown that little is understood about mediocracy unless properly enforced. It has also been observed that even the youngest of citizens can be majorly influenced by media up until they attend universities in higher education. Even then, individuals and society alike could still be subject to misinformation or harmful effects due to negative influences improperly interpreted as appropriate behavior. As art influences life, so does life influence art; as communications changes so does society, and as society changes, so does communications. It is up to educational boards, business, news networks, and individuals alike to stay on top of the changing times to ensure both current and future societies will advance and prosper in this roaring sea of digital information.
Anderson, C.A., Berkowitz, L., Donnerstein, E., Husesmann, L.R., Johnson, J.D., Linz, D., Malamuth, N.M., & Wartella, E. (2003, Dec). The influence of media violence on youth. [Electronic version]. Psychological Science in the Public Interest, 4, (3), 81-110.
Baltruschat, D. (2004). The ABCs of media education: A hands-on-approach. [Electronic version]. Feliciter, 50, 190-192.
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Deil-Amen, R., & Rosenbaum, J. E., (2003, Mar). The social prerequisites of success: Can college structure reduce the need for social know-how? [Electronic Version]. Annals of the American Academy of Political and Social Science, Vol. 586, 120-143
De Castell, S., & Jenson J. (2005). Videogames and digital gameplay - The new field of educational game studies. [Electronic version]. Orbit, 35 (2), 17.
De Jong, M.T., & Bus, A.G., (2004, Oct-Dec). The efficacy of electronic books in fostering kindergarten children’s emergent story understanding. [Electronic version]. Reading Research Quarterly, 39, 378-393.
Duran, R.L., Yousman, B., Walsh, K.M., Longshore, M.A. (2008, Feb). Holistic media education: An assessment of the effectiveness of a college course in media literacy. [Electronic version]. Communication Quarterly, 56, 49-68.
Hobbs, R., & Frost, R. (Jul.-Sep., 2003) Measuring the acquisition of media-literacy skills. [Electronic version]. Reading Research Quarterly. 38, 330-355.
Johansen, M. & Joslyn, M. (2008, Autumn). Political persuasion during times of crisis: The effects of education and news media on citizens’ factual information about iraq. [Electronic version]. Journalism & Mass Communication Quarterly, 85 (3), 591-608.
Kuksa, I., (2009). Virtual reality in theatre education and design practice -- new developments and applications. [Electronic version]. Art, Design & Communication in Higher Education, 7, 73-89.
Lou, Y., Abrami, P.C., & d’Apollonia, S. (2001, Autumn). Small group and individual learning with technology: A meta-analysis. [Electronic version]. Review of Educational Research, 71, (3), 449-521.
Mastro, D., Lapinski, M.K., Kpacz, M.A., & Behm-Morawitz, E. (2009-Oct.). The influence of exposure to depictions of race and crime in TV news on viewer's social judgments. [Electronic version]. Journal of Broadcasting & Electronic Media, 53 (4), 615-635.
Meirick, P.C., Sims, J.D., Gilchrist, E.S., Croucher, S.M. (2009, Apr-Jun). All the children are above average: Parents’ perceptions of education and materialism as media effects on their own and other children. [Electronic version]. Mass Communication & Society, 12, 217-237.
Valentine, G., & Holloway, S.L. (2002, Jun). Cyberkids? Exploring children’s identities and social networks in on-line and offline worlds. [Electronic version]. Annals of the Association of American Geographers, 92 , 302-319.
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Logos Kinon
So I’ve been following around the blog-sphere and started to notice something that some blogs have that mine doesn’t.
A theme...
I thought I had a theme... In fact, it would appear that the theme of this blog is fairly obvious but I don’t think I’ve ever come out and admitted that [I] even knew what it was...
The name has always been “Renaissance Man.”
Why?
Well that is something I aspire to be. . .
It’s a life long pursuit, yes, but what pursuit in life isn’t?
I honestly had no clue what I wanted to be when I grew up because I couldn’t make up my mind... I was also scared that whatever I chose to become wouldn’t make me happy, I’d change my mind but it would be too late... I had to be certain! But I just couldn’t choose to do any one thing, because I knew that any one thing couldn’t make me happy.
I use to tell people, then, that I wanted to be a jack of all trades but master of none.
I soon realized that employers and businesses don’t like to hear this sort of thing: they rely upon individuals with very specific skills and character traits.
Well, there’s nothing really wrong with wanting to know how to do all sorts of different things or to desire many different abilities; however, it’s still important to find what you’re really good at and stick with it--also know as “finding your niche.”
“What am I good at?” was the next question...
Photography and graphic art are two things I’ve always loved and enjoyed...
I love taking pictures and I love manipulating them to make something out of this world!
I love talking about it, can’t stop thinking about it, and I love teaching others about it all the time.
It didn’t stop there, though, and that’s when life started to get really interesting.
Still images are amazing things and like they say, “A picture speaks a thousand words”
I then thought to myself, “I enjoy speaking words of encouragement especially through my writing and my photographs... But if a picture speaks a thousand words, then how many words are spoken in moving pictures or film?”
The standard film rate in American cinema is 24 frames per second.
And a feature length film is said to be an average of 90 to 120 minutes in length
1000 words times 24 fames times 60 seconds times 120 minutes equals 172,800,000 words!
Of course, I’m not just talking about the dialog, and yes, one cannot take in a single frame of film as they can a single photograph; however, the possibilities of communicating ideas and the amount of skill that goes into this extensively collaborative business is incredible!
So incredible... That I’m sure it’s what I want to do for the rest of my life...
You take film and you get both a collaborative effort extensively involved in both art and science.
Am I capable of being the best at every little aspect of film making? Of course not. But working in film still gives me the chance to use what gifts I do have and mix and match them with the gifts others have. I’m not so bright when it comes to music, but I can still use what little knowledge I have to work with someone who has dedicated his or her life to musical theory. I may not be that great of a craftsmen, but who knows? I may get to work with some of the greatest craftsmen this world has ever known. And to think, it can all happen on the set of a film.
I now like to think of the renaissance man and the filmmaker as synonymous--one and the same...
I now realize that, overall, this has been something I’ve been wanting to achieve since I was learning more about art in high school.
I was home schooled in fact which could be of no surprise considering that many other renaissance souls out there were home schooled also. But now, at twenty years of age, I am encouraged to share that I am attending University seeking a degree in mass communications with emphasis in film production, cinematography, digital editing, and motion design.
As for my writing... I shouldn’t desire to limit my scope in the film industry only. So while I may not always speak of filmmaking or whatever I may be working on at the time, I should like to discuss things beyond that.
I try not to seem like an activist of sorts. I tend to remain neutral on most controversial issues. Instead, I would seek to share what little wisdom I have found through life and scriptures not to point out the wrong in life, but to expound on how we all can live better.
Whether I’m doing it here on my blog or hopefully someday in film, I shall strive to be of what encouragement I can while seeking advancement in both art, science, and the word of God.
Of course, what little life I have left in this fascinating universe will be dedicated to He who as made me. All glory be to God and God alone. Amen.
So what is the theme of my blog?
Well,
If the Pen is Mightier then the sword...
If the word of God is sharper than any two edged sword...
If a Picture Speaks a Thousand Words...
If Film Is Thousands of Moving Pictures
Then the theme of my blog is this:
"Ho Logos Kinon"--The Moving Word
Finally, for anyone who is interested in art or science or both; for anyone in search of encouragement; for anyone interested in film production, photography, or graphic design; for anyone interested in sharing some deep thoughts in this sea of information, I hope you find yourself welcome here.
To any renaissance man (or women) out there,
God speed,
~Rob Oakley (An aspiring Renaissance Man)
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Monday, March 29, 2010
You know that feeling...
The feeling you get when you’re asleep but you still feel like you’re awake?
It’s a restless tossing and turning that all thanks goes to having too much on the mind...
I understand the necessity of resting the eyes and the feet, I tend to do it even when I feel the need during the day. But my mind... My mind seems to never sleep, never rest.
And it’s not a simple shutdown that I’m looking for, but a pattern of thought that ends.
To take everything I was thinking about the day before, or anything I’m worried about, and just stop thinking about it...
Being anxious for nothing isn’t nearly as easy as it seems...
But I would do good to at least put myself in a position where I didn’t have to worry about anything because I took the responsibility of securing whatever it is I’m concerned about. I asked questions, I did my research, I tied the loose ends, I even said I was sorry...
Yet still, I feel like I can never get any sound and peaceful rest...
Sometimes I get too much sleep... In fact, I think sometimes I get just enough and the truth behind my lack of rest is I’d rather be resting then living... This would explain why I’m so worried about getting up the next day, the tossing and turning comes from me not wanting to face any present or future consequences.
I’m really not afraid of getting dirty... But I tend to avoid it whenever I can.
This will surely lead me to failure and even. . .
Death.
They say that one third of your life is spent sleeping...
Let’s start making more of what two thirds we have left...
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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Sunday, March 28, 2010
Straylight Run and my 100th blog post
This song was sent to me by a dear friend of mine and I wanted to pass it on myself...
I suppose this is a large stepping stone for me. Not only is this my 100th post but I'll also be turning 20 years old with in the next 48 hours.
I'll put it in the way my friend did.
I'm not scared.
I'm terrified.
It's not that I'm scared of change or getting older...
I'm scared of not knowing, not seeing, not hearing the sweet abyss speak to me the words of wisdom and devine counsel... To know, to see, to hear what the future holds for me...
There's plenty of knowledge in the world and the writing of many books there will be no end...
But to be wise in knowing, to understand, to discover--who I am and what I am for. . .
My life isn’t as typical as I once thought... I feel that I now live with a much higher purpose and I continue to suppress all that would make me ordinary. I long to make my mark in this universe, but am without means or desire... Because it would not be for my own glory but of that which made me... There is no more authentic originality in my work for it is nothing more than reflections of what has already been made; wherefore, I am a procreator that projects life on the walls of emptiness and nothing more...
I long to create life just as my creator before me. To breathe into new worlds of my own inspiration, to share such worlds with others through whatever effective means I have to my disposal.
To release from this flawed earth and escape my shell is what I long for most. . .
For I am indeed a spirit going though a painful and confusing human existence...
Yet I endure for the sheer pleasure of life--The taste of the air is sweet and the sights are even more desirable...
But there is nothing to gain, nothing worth while, nothing worth pursuing without the love, without the grace, without the glory of God being the central purpose.
"My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer."
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